What used to be one of the happiest time of our lives, is now the most saddest and painful time as you are not here. You would be so excited about xmas-u loved everything about it-the advent calendar, the presents, Santa, choosing presents for people, tv programmes, the songs etc. Now when I awake the home is quite and dark today when it used be full of happiness and excitment. My heart aches for you and I feel it breaks all over on xmas day. I cant explain in words what it is like to live without. I miss you "Meri Jaan" and "big Hug" from "Moti Cow". Love you loads. Your Didi Shushma.xx